Around here life goes on like normal and for me that’s a huge plus. I like things to just roll along the same each day. That means everyone is doing good, no problems, illness or disasters so to speak.
The twins are finally back in class. Geeze I didn’t think the colleges around here would ever start this year, it seems so late to me. Two of them in college now wow, so hard to believe.
I got a call from an old friend the other night and we were just discussing life. She told me her grandson started kindergarden this year and I about fell off the chair. It just doesn’t seem possible he is old enough. But then she told me what is worse, is knowing the twins are going to be 20 in February. That means we have known each other 2o years all ready. As we were talking and re-hashing the serious side of life and the crazy things we did it got me thinking how fast the days, months and heck in our case the years are flying by. A lot of ups and downs but you know you have to treasure each and every day. All ready yesterday is one more memory you tuck away and seem to forget until years later, then you think “oh yeah that did happen, or that was funny, etc.”
I don’t know about you but I used to take every day for granted and just move through life not even thinking how precious it is. Now caring for mama I treasure each and every day we have her with us. Well really as I think about it, I treasure all my family and friends cause heck you just never know. Mama is 91 and who is to say she will pass say before me, I don’t know that, no one does , so I do try to make each day the best there is. I used to feel I wasn’t important but now I am learning I am just as important as the next person. Oh I may not have a career, not be the best looking person around, but I do count in life. Since I have started thinking that way I do see things differently. I had a rude awakening this past summer and I know I can overcome anything and I do count. I know I have to take care of me first. If I don’t, I won’t be able to care for anyone else. I didn’t put it into perspective until Kathie and I were talking the other night and yep as Oprah would say I had the “aha moment.” I know each person needs to care for themself and like themself before they can be any good to anyone else. So for all of you out there that felt like me “useless, ugly, no good etc” please find your aha moment and trust me, it will make a huge difference. Now I don’t pull any punches, I don’t feel inferior ( well that one I am working on 🙂 ) but let’s say I don’t feel as inferior as I used to, and I realize that yep I am an okay person and yep I do have a place on this earth so I am going to move on, gain more and more confidence in myself and know what? It feels darn good and now I know if I want something or want to do something, I can and will do it!!!
Life goes on but don’t let it just slip by, make the most of each day and treasure all the time you spend either by yourself or with your family and friends, everything is a lot brighter when you do.
Strange how one phone call from an old friend and re-hashing life can change one’s outlook isn’t it? But for me it did and I am glad she called. A blast from the past but it sure helped me to have a brighter future. See you never know what will trigger your “aha moment” do you?